Old unknown

Been talking to this one, the old one.

But I'm still missing the old time we had.

Is it because I'm still holding back?

Haven't told him what had happened?

I am afraid of the changes this time when we are committed.

I very miss him...

Dammit. 

If i tell him that, i dont think he will care feel annoyed.

 

Oh well, having interviews soon so I guess I have no time for this.

But I just want to tell him this much... IMISSYOU IDIOT~ 

ENDED

Yep ENDED!

I feel thanks and blessed for had had him in my life.

This is because we really had a good time and I have had learned a lot of things from him from this relationship.

I don't regret! If I had the chance again, I would do that!

Actually, I wanted to cry but I don't know why I didn't.

He is a perfect guy for me.
What a perfect guy for me, I guess is kinda same as me but not really?
Caring, mature, know to have fun alone, think of others?
But sometimes the same kind of people does not mean it will really suit u...

 After I am back from KL visit, I don't see or I don't feel the way we used to be in Adelaide.
Or maybe we are far apart we know /understand what we want.
Maybe when we closed to each other, both of us can tolerate each other but not until we are far apart.

As I said we are not keeper...
So this is the endinggg for us...


Haven't tell anyone bout this except my bff.
Is just too fast but is just like the wind come fast gone fast..
I will remember this love because it thought me what i really want.

Thank you.
All the best for you. :)

No longer we can't hold on it anymore..

Yes he said Break UP.

What the feel i have is only really pitied that once we are so in love but end up we figure out we do not really suit each other.

Is a Great thing thou. At least i don't need pull wait wait. I don't even know what language is this hahaha.

After all, love you teach me new things again :)

Thank GOD nad im blessed :)

THE only things

unconsciously my dream gets me the answer.

Keep dreaming about him.

I just don't dare to make a step. Is either stay on it or move on...

When I decided or trying to stay, I feel like I don't have the care I want.
I asked him every single question! Yes, he answered me with YES / NO.
He never even asks me any questions.
I feel he doesn't even want to answer me.
I feel I am annoying or frustrated him.
I feel left out. :(

and 

secretly 

I 

hope

he

say 

it

by

himself. 

Lets

break

up.

What is this

To dear 2018,

Can I be much stronger? Can I be more brave and independent? Enough of hurting people.

Can I have more imagination on my future? I need commitment but I can't even see the future.

From 2017, I learned the wrong I learned what I want but I just need a little bit more.

In the coming of 2018, I have learned to mix/socialize with people It is the good steps.



The past or the present me,

I feel I don't have any dignity, not strong enough, I missed him but I knew the other guy was waiting for me but sometimes I don't see his effort of it.

maybe because both of us are kind of similar as in the relationship.
We don't stick with each other at all.
We keep our things to own self.
We love our life/family where we don't really put each other on the priority
Where it seems like we don't put any efforts.
He likes to call, I like to type.
He sleeps early, I sleep late.
He wakes early, I wake up late.
He loves the sport, I love movies.
He eats healthy, I eat unhealthily.
Sometimes it seems the same and the differences are okay but not really for me now.
We have nothing to talk about is it a good thing = no argue (which I really hope for).
But what I need is communication going on. Can't seem he knows what going on with me or either of us....

I don't even know how it goes..