Broke down

Yesterday. once again I broke down very badly..

I keep writing the things I want to tell him but end up I have no BRAVE.

However, I accidentally pressed called but I just cut off. I don't dare..

And again I typed what I want and sent because someone told me if u never try, never know.

But in the end, i recalled the message too.

I dont know, I just know i dont dare to call/text him. cause i have no right to do all this things..

But then the next day he asked me whether im okay or not..

I really hate myselfffffffffff.
but i realize im happy talk with him. :/

Im sorry i messed up my life..........